Monday, November 29, 2010

Pre-graduation Phototaking

眨眼间, 快要四年了~
当穿上毕业袍时, 才发现我快要毕业了!

当时的感觉因该是快乐还是悲伤呢?

快乐的是......
我要毕业了! 就要步入社会工作, 体验新的环境~
展开我生命的另一页

悲伤的是......
毕竟在这里呆了四年, 怎样都会有些不舍
我可说是UTAR Kampar 的元老吧~ 
从四年前500个学生到现在,一直看着UTAR的建筑物慢慢的扩展,人数慢慢地增加
毕业后, 朋友都会各奔前程, 各自发展, 到时见面的机会就显然变少了
还有, 不舍得一群还在念书的朋友们, 导师和讲师们, 还有我的大姐大- Miss Alice 
我毕业后,别忘了我哦~ Sob Sob......... ((泪狂流 


还有一件让我悲伤的是~
我要开始还PTPTN Loan 了!(这应该是我真正的悲伤吧~哈哈)


接下来, 就是照片分享时间
区区那一小时半的时间, 我们cam whore的照片还蛮多=.='' 
(我们拍照的功力还蛮恐怖~ )
这里只是一小部分~





我的admirer - Ben 
(哈哈 XD)



好喜欢这张 ^^


我这次拍照的私人助手1号



拍照私人助手2号


Ah Ben 真的很Hiao咯~


Buddies.... Buddies..... Buddies...


Assignment mate



除了拍毕业照以外, 我们还拍了以Summer Wear 为主题的照片~





救命~!!! NKY 好重....T___T



家庭合照



很爱act cute 的Uncle Ben


又被欺负了~ T__T











Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Speechless

Sometime, I really dunno what u r thinking
Sometime, I will concern that u will feel reluctant if I over control


But.....


Sometime, what u have said and done
It's made me felt disappointed
Sometime, I make it silent and do not correct u in the public
Is because I concern of your self-esteem and your status


Today.....


Something is make me sad and speechless
I'm not sure whether the rumour is correct or not 
but I'm sure that everyone is laughing at us
I dunno how to react and just keep thinking and wonder
"why you will said like that on that moment?"


Have you ever think about what're the impacts after what you have said?
May be you  are still young and dun have much experience.....
We are here and will lend a hand to help u
but we will not alway be with u
One day you have to handle all the things by your own


Sometime u should not have to let 'others' know what's going on and how is our progress
because internal progress is such a secret and cannot make known to public
But u have made this mistake again, such a big mistake


I think u should think about what're the impacts before u trying to do and say......
U should learn how to use a correct and better ways to let 'others' know your activity's progress if they are asking
Never let 'others' know your activity's weaknesses and what are the problems you are facing
May be in your perception, you will think that telling all these things and 'they' will lend a hand to help you
but normally is not.....
Because the result that I get is, they will laughing and try to look down on you


So what had happened and just let it go
Hopefully you wont repeat the same mistake again............

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

无题

大家都已经会周公去了吧~
唯独我一个人,眼睁睁的睡不着
今晚又重复同样的东西 - 失眠


宁静的夜晚却让人想得特别多
悠然发现,可以让我诉苦和分担忧愁的朋友几乎是没有
只有这里是我唯一一个让我发泄和诉苦的地方。。。
把不开心和烦恼的事情往这里塞~


玩乐的朋友可说是一大班,可是当你有烦恼沉默的时候
是没有人会开口关心问你一声:“你怎么了? 你还好吗?”
他(她)们反而会说你在闹情绪,没有人会愿意当你诉苦的对象。


当你试着向一个可以依赖的朋友诉说时,
他(她)是没有站在你的立场去想,反而对你说:“你这样做是不对的!”
最终只有沉默自己承受
所以有时干脆选择沉默不出声不回应。

在我生命里,唯有一个可以当我忠实的聆听者 - 妈妈
唯有她会静静地聆听和给与适当的安慰与建议。

曾经被人垂弃过,也在死亡边缘徘徊过,但庆幸的活了过来
或许已看透这一切,有没有可以信任与分担忧愁的朋友已没关系
自己一个人去面对也许会让自己更加的坚强吧!

或许把保护自己的围墙建的太高了,没人敢越过它
或许已习惯自己一个人去处理,对有没有可以分担的朋友已经没知觉
或许我的生活圈子里只有我一个人。。。

也曾经想过,如果当时真的被垂弃了,一切将会是怎样。。。。

Sunday, November 14, 2010

做回自己, 真实的自己

累了.... 不想再继续掩饰, 不想再继续卖弄笑脸


开心时, 想笑就大声地笑吧! 不必理会别人怎么看待你
随着自己的心情去吧~


心情不好时...... 不想说话就别说, 就让自己沉默一天
不必勉强自己强颜欢笑, 像小丑似的惹人欢笑


这样做, 别人不会对你好一些, 只是让自己觉得更加的疲累......


现在回想, 卖弄笑脸, 勉强自己强颜欢笑..... 做这些到底是为了什么?
什么都不是, 只是自己一厢情愿........


我要找回原来的我, 做回真实的我
不必要再为了逗别人开心, 逼自己去衬托别人而失去了原来的自己




我要..........
做回自己, 真实的自己

Miracle

Raining night...... such a good weather for me to sleep
but tonight I'm insomnia again~ 
Stress and Worry are come to me again, why I should have such feeling? 
Now I'm thinking will that person has facing same feeling like me? Yes or No....


Why I should worry about all these messy stuffs?
Because of responsibility?
Because of faces or other else?
A lot of things hvnt settle yet, all come together, where and which I should settle first?


Why I should take this responsibility to settle all these things? 
Izit part of my job? May be the answer is YES
Now what I only can do is make a wish~
"Hope there will be a Miracle and I able to create it"